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what can i hold on to? it was never easy in life to find the right one
the one you want to spend your life with.
and never easy to find what you want in life too..
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[Oct. 19th, 2009|05:58 pm] |
sunny day[: . back from malaysia!
went to malaysia with jaslyn to my gan-mummy hse. day one went out with my kor, fabian to shop! i love shopping alot!!! but after walking abt 3 places, i only bought a cardigan and a thighs for 50RM ! one word ,CHEAP!!! ate alot of food till i wanna puke out already! middle of the night went to nearby to take supper . back to home and i sleep at daryl kor's room wah damn cold la till i my nose turn numb! so does kor nose.. as for my beloved jaslyn, she was fully numb when she wake up cause the blanket she use was thin !! poor thing. after that had our dinner and got tis drink known as the " san se nan cha" in english which is 3 colour milk tea? hahas .. damn nice and very style la! breakfast finish and got to head back to singapore .took a cab with jaslyn and both kor .when reach the custom we were stuck at the custom due to cig! damn pissed off cos we dun even noe we walk the wrong side. FUCK THE CUSTOM LA! DUNNOE HOW TO PUT THE SIGN BIG ARH! HAI ME KANNA FINE! NBCB!!!! got fine for $200 and we got stuck there for 3-4 hrs there cos we dun have so much cash with us la. by the time reach home it was already 6 plus 7. headed down to buy food and dinner time ! etc.. time for pictures enjoy!
daryl kor and mine hand.see the difference!  |
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| 1st working day >. |
[Oct. 7th, 2009|11:24 pm] |
today went to work with jaslyn at raffles. at 1st we were actually assigned to help lorreal (not sure the spelling) to give out their sample item but who knows we were assigned to give out newspaper! make me damn pissed off and guess what. they have lots of stack of newspaper and i have to give it all out . OMG! at 1st they gave me an umbrella but the umbrella seems not for me cause i'm all along under the hot sun! they separate me and jaslyn each to one station. and jaslyn's side of newspaper was like so little and mine was like so damn much so she finish faster than me.after that while heading to the toiliet than i know why she can finish so fast. it was actually because there is this guy who move her stack of newspaper to my side which cause me having to stand under the hot sun longer! arrghhh~ after that we plan to go to hougang plaza for pool . called james to go there and meet us and he say he dont have money to take bus. so me and jaslyn have to go down to bedok and go down to hougang with him. when we reach bedok i headed to look for my big aunt but she wasn't in the shop. so talk to my " ah pui" than took a bus to james's house and walking to his block is a disaster for me! cause my feet hurts. reached his house he was playing dota so i sat at his sofa and wait for him to be done./ my dear jaslyn help me massage till i fall asleep (: so nice till i don't feel like waking up! headed to hougang for pool and in the bus i fall asleep on jaslyn shoulder. played pool and felt bored so we stopped and when for lan. played for a few matches with jas, i really feel like sleeping.. so headed home 1st. sleep till now and just had my dinner sad part is im starving but the rice aint enough cause uncle johnny ate my share already! now resting in my nice comfy bed and blogging! kay wanna go relax now. bye! |
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[Oct. 5th, 2009|01:34 am] |
8 more days to court. rainy day.
today's grandma birthday. before going, had an argument with mummy. cos she saw my tattoo and she forgot that she knew abt it. after that when to grandma's birthday dinner at a club. burn myself today after perming my hair. thx to jaslyn for perming my hair. was very busy walking ard in the restaurant cos got to help mum to settle the table sitting arrangement . the dish were not very nice and im still hungry! but no choice but to tahan. took some fotos. so enjoy viewing it! |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2009|01:41 am] |
| [ | feelings within me |
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| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | vincent;starry starry night | ] |
9 more days before court. raining day.
today went swimming. after finishing swiming went bathing and when i came out from the tolilet, it was raining. but still, there where people swimming or playing in the pool. especially the kids playing, the smile on there face wasnt being wash off by the rain.grandma birthday comming. today, my beloved zhabor introduce me a job. the job is working at compass point 's imfomation counter. so this comming moday got to follow her to her agency to fill in some form as what i heard. if i got the job, i wonder will i be able to do it? what about my court. its just so tiring to smile and laugh all along but actually i was just so depressed by my court tingy .but who can i speak to? to all the people around me they would only tell me dont worry dont worry. but how am i not to? if only god gave me the chance. will it happen? lucky i found one person who is willing to be my witness but would it help?sometimes i wonder avoiding from the problem i occur would it help? i know this is only act of coward but do i really have the strength to face and hold on strong? i got no idea. afterall i've been avoiding all the problems that comes my way for the pass years. |
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[Sep. 20th, 2009|06:42 am] |
lately,dont know what happen to me i seems to have some problems in controling my emotions. i got so worked up even by little stuffs. 2 days ago, middle of the night wasnt in good mood so shawn brought me out.and thats also the 1st time going to marina barrage. hahas so out-dated right? we sat facingthe flyers. i really got to thank him for hearing me pouring out my sorrows and tings i had never got the guts to say out. he is really a nice guy. and im glad he is my best friend at least it prove to me that god aint that cruel.cause he gave me a best friend shawn,someone who would hear me out even im talking things that make no senses. he would explain things to me and make me understand.he make me learn how to open up instead of bottle up things that make me upset.. called him and ask him where is the highest place in singapore that can see nice view.he say he dont know but he say that he got a place in mind of bring me to the next time. hahas. soon my birthday is coming but i really dont know how would it be. maybe it would be like normal day? court also coming soon i really hope things turn out well.
love is a feeling that you cant never lied about it.
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| unbeliveable |
[Sep. 15th, 2009|08:50 am] |
| [ | feelings within me |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | love game | ] |
淡滨尼小学模仿《美国偶像》
唱歌学母语
报道：朱志伟 摄影：萧民豪
 “你们唱得很好，是合唱团的成员？怪不得把歌曲唱得那么好。”
“听得出你们的歌声很好，掌握歌曲的节奏也不错。如果你们有机会打入决赛的话，尝试在和声的部分做得更好。”
淡滨尼小学（Tampines Pri）的四名小六女生洪宛全、王王叔雯、汤丽锦和陈水琳，把台湾歌手蔡依林的歌曲《说爱你》唱得非常出色，获得三名评判老师母语部主任康伟明、马来老师 Sutrisno和印度籍老师Ravi的一致好评之后，兴高采烈地走出试音室。
四人在接受大拇指的访问时说：“我们觉得自己唱得很好，应该会进决赛。”
可接下来上场表演的四名马来籍男生，“命运”就比较“悲惨”了，他们虽然是四人上阵，可是却只有一个人在唱，以其说“唱”，倒不如说他在念歌词还比较贴切！
马来老师Sutrisno首先“发难”：“你是在唱歌，还是在对我说话？要知道，你们是来参加试音，不是来玩的，准备好了再来吧！”
以《美国偶像》的方式评审 看到这里，同学们一定会发现，这样的试音场面，怎么活脱脱就是一《美国偶像》（America Idols）节目“版本”？
是的，为了让学生在语文节（Language Fiesta）参加母语卡拉OK比赛时更有投入感和新鲜感，负责老师康伟明决定以《美国偶像》节目里的评审方式，选出能进入4月17日决赛的参赛者。
康老师说：“学校在4月4日至16日举行语文节，除了举办母语卡拉OK比赛，我们还有母语故事书封面设计比赛和动画片欣赏等，让学生通过各种有趣的方式学母语。” 选唱5566、SHE等歌手的歌 母语卡拉OK比赛要求学生以母语唱出歌曲，也就是说马来同学选马来歌，印籍同学就选唱印度歌，华籍学生的选择则以时下流行歌曲居多，像5566、SHE和蔡依林等歌手的歌曲，都被同学选唱。
因为一个较新颖的包装，使这项原本看起来一般的比赛生色不少。其中一名参赛者梁生华说：“这是我生平第一次‘上台’（上的虽然不是舞台）表演。我喜欢这种感觉，虽然评审老师们对我们的表演评价不是太高，不过我把他们的话当成是一种鼓励。”
哎，他说起话来，是不是也和William Hung（孔庆翔）很像啊？同学们觉得呢？
this is actually when i was primary 6!hahas. can ue guys guess which one is me? (third from the left!) its so funny la when i surf the net and who knows i actually able to find this!
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[Sep. 12th, 2009|04:47 am] |
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| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | 从开始到现在 | ] |
im back to update once again! lately did took photos but dint update cause i was too lazy and been stress up by tons of stuffs. went to court and once again postpone. my lawyer say if i cant find that victim out i might be going in . WTF. is this fair to me? i don't think so . why do the rest get to scott free and i get to get the most heavy punishment? the rest got away one with a fine , two with nothing but warning and the other one? due to other cases he already have to go in . than what about me ? just because i once was in, once have a record i got to go in? what the fuck. Singapore law was never fair to human and they actually have thew face to put the statue there trying to give the image that they are fair and the give justice, they dont judge people. but does it really show? no i dont think so. just because of someone past they place someone in. so does that mean one bad impression , one scar left, everything is gone ? don't they know that nothing in this world is perfect ? even the most behaved kid in the world also once did something wrong. forget it i know no matter what i say cant change a single thing. who will really understand my feeling, the sadness in me? i doubt no one does. i have to act like i totally don't worry and i'm fine. so that people thinks that i fine and strong. i hate it. i miss those days i got to go shopping and have fun. sleep the whole day like nobody's problem ? to others, i just have to be prepared and to them its like its no big deal since i have been in for 2 and a half years already. but do they really think it was easy for me? no one understood. who will really stand by me and hold me tight , protest for me? i don't know. my tears could only flows in the silent night where noone knows. |
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[Sep. 7th, 2009|04:30 am] |
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| |  sick | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | rak ther mai mee wun yhood | ] |
fever is gone at last. medicine a lot and i hate eating it! but no choice if i want to get well soon(: nth much to post and i also got nth much wanna say. sian.. lately weather really sucks. so got to drink lots of water! t.care my readers! really wanna thanks all my friends for their care and concern about my sickness. esp to jaslyn, my beloved zhabor(: , shawn my bestie! , wei lun and etc. have been sms-ing me to ask how's my condition. im so touched by you guys!
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[Sep. 6th, 2009|01:06 am] |
| [ | feelings within me |
| | sick | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | sweet heart | ] |
ended going to my nu er's birthday. had fun though some probs occur. after the bbq , when to hougang plaza for audi with my beloved zhabor and the clown! play half way and was really not feeling well. infact at the end of the bbq i start to feel unwell le. taught nths wrong so when to play audi but who knows i cant take it when i reach plaza! zhabor see i very xin ku so ask me to go home and rest. sweet right her(: after that she pei me go down and i when to 7-eleven to buy mash potato as im starving. sat at the bus stop to wait for cab and me and zhabor started chating. awhile later took cab home! took tempreture and my degree is 37.7! took panadol and started to cheek my mails and blog! kay i really cannort take it any longer got to sleep le! gd night readers! |
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[Sep. 5th, 2009|01:18 pm] |
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| |  rejected | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | ruk sam sao | ] |
im bored. nth to do.
nu er im sorry cant celebrate your birthday with you le.
hope you enjoy ur day(:
i want to be set free.
thai song rocks! i love it!
been hearing since last night till now.
i know im been all alone by myself.
never will i be set free or get my ideal dreams coming true.sometimes just got to admit to fate.
bye.
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[Sep. 5th, 2009|08:33 am] |
| [ | feelings within me |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | 男人.女人 | ] |
was being lazy lately to update. was shopping like mad lately! and i love to shop. today's my nu er richel's birthday got her a present hope she will like it. courts coming real soon and im totally stressed up! OMG when can i have a break from thinking and stressing about stuffs? guess im gonna wait till the day im dead?
anyway last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NU ER(:
im sorry ; put the blame on me
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[Sep. 2nd, 2009|04:22 am] |
once i heard about a guy who loves a girl madly. the girl, is a mother of 1 . despite her carry a child, he still love her truely with his heart. but never did he expect that the girl would leave him. because of her, he spend all his savings and everyday finding money to let her spend so that she would be happy. when she says she would like to go to a place he never fails to bring her there. for her, he lost all his friends. at times she would throw temper on him. staying at his house, she need not do anything and his parents dote her child like their own grandchild. and her? contacting her ex and other guys. even when her ex said something that make her seems like she is someone cheap. and the poor guy who loves her so much, got so pissed off and scold her ex but never expect that she defence her ex! cutting short, the girl left him and when off with a guy who cant look after her and is a coward too. as the poor guy know that in the care of that bastard, she will never lead a good life,so playing the bad guy role in her eyes, he tell that bastard to come out and have a talk and that coward, says that there isnt any need. is the girl's fault. she is the one who wants to follow me and etc. poor him have to be torture by those harsh words of that girl. even by saying " i miss you" all he get back was " please dont make your problem my problem" is that what he deserve? calling me today asking me how to fold rose cause of the girl.
and that poor guy is my best friend(:
(names will be kept unknown)
mending a broken heart needs plenty of time.
and its also up to the one to deceide;
deceide weather to give up hope..
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[Sep. 2nd, 2009|03:41 am] |
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| |  confused | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | na me ai ni wei she me | ] |
its been a long time since i last post . so here i am once again to post on my recent life(: lately many things have been happening. well, on 31 i when for clubbing @ play club with katty, my beloved zhabor JCMC and mr JTCW. of cause we also saw other friends there too. after that went to cherry till 3 . had fun mostly @ cherry. fun club not so .. lately hanging out with my zhabor and mr JTCW the clown! really had fun and im happy! love to hang out with them. took photos too.(:
if only things get simplify,
life alone aint that easy to live .
and once there wad a saying.
having love in ur love is opening the gate of happiness.
but i dun argee to it.
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[Aug. 28th, 2009|11:45 pm] |
Same Script Different Cast
Whitney: Um?hey Deb.
Deborah Cox: Mmm hmm?
WH: Thank you for being woman enough to come.
DC: Whitney, what′s this about?
WH: I know he′s leaving me for you.
DC: Who said that? Who told you that it′s true?
What is he telling you?
Could it be the same things that he told me?
DC: He told me that he loved me.
WH: I heard that.
DC: He told me I was
WH: Because I played that scene before.
CHORUS:
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you′re the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you′re on.
Just remember you′ve been warned.
Enjoy it now, ′cause it won′t last.
Same script, different cast.
it just relflects to my feeling. i just felt emotional when i hear tis song.
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[Aug. 27th, 2009|08:05 pm] |
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IM NOBODY'S CHILD. UNWANTED. NOTHING
LEFT WITH NOTHING USELESS CREATURE IN THE WORLD
I HATE MYSELF
IM JUST A FOOL BEEN PUNK BY PEOPLE
IM MAD.INSANE.
ALL ALONE.
BEST OF BEST,
I CANT TAKE THE SLIGHTEST BLOW.
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[Aug. 27th, 2009|01:25 am] |
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| | confused | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | 那麼愛你為什麼 | ] |
today went back home to visit castin and ah ma and also due to some reason.
mummy say she wants a divorce done. but i doubt is it just another moment of anger. but of cos i hope she really divorce! sounds bad uh? its becos that bastard make me cant go home, beats castin when he ain't in good mood and even lay his hand on mummy. not even a gentleman at all. FUCK. how i wish one day i get a call saying that ue had been hit and run, and ue are lying in hospital going to die soon? i know i sounded im evil but who to blame. its like so what ue are someone big shot in ur fanatic world? means ue can do whatever ue want like there isn't any law or ue had the final call even the president? tell ue wad , ue are just a piece of shit . nothing. ain't any big shot in my eyes!
gonna move back home to protect my poor mummy ,brother and granny from danger . he is such a pain in the neck. how i wish i really could get rid of him in the shortest time ever?
i learn a lesson,
a lesson given by what my mum show me.
you might be able to tolerate everything the person you sincerely love;
but how long can you hang on there?
her smile; still as charming as ever.
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[Aug. 26th, 2009|09:58 am] |
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the guy in the pic wearing black sunglasses trying to act cool there when there isnt any sunlight, was sitting on the reserve sit ! what an inconsiderate singaorean . really spoil singapore market man! at 1st he saw the old man(in the circle) standing. he tried to act as if he dint.after a while he had his second glance and i spot it ,once again he act like nth happen. the third time he glance trying not to let people see or know he saw the old man, he put on that idiotic sun glasses. for that moment i really feel like going there and give that guy a slap.
one not like man also dun look like a women keep staring at me after i took tis picture. i was like " eh whats the prob with ue , ue dun even noe why or what i took so why look at me like i was in debt with ue or did i kill ur parents? "
this tells us one ting, if ue ever sit on the reserve sit and saw any people who needs it more den ue do, better give in. if not i guess ue would be nxt in the foto if ue really are so unlucky in the same mrt with me!
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[Aug. 25th, 2009|08:52 pm] |
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today went to court and i was late. saw yu ting at court too as today was her court too. leonard was there too.
my lawyer dint spoke to me as i was late and i doubt he was pissed off by my often lateness.
just found out that beloved daddy is going to court tml and im really worried for him. praying that he would be sentence after my birthday. and once again im gonna love someone who dote on me tons. daddy pls be fine. my heart aches to see ue like this. im sorry i should had stay strong and not let ue hear me break down. ue are someone who really care and would definately give up ur all to keep me out of danger but this time round i drop myself in deep shit making ue heart pain and worried for me before ue go in. im gonna wait and miss ue.
mummy's body aint getting better castin made her so pissed off yesterday till her astma attacked. soon she got to go on the operation table. please god keep her safe and sound. even though she sometimes dint play her role as a mom should be but afterall she loves me with her heart and she is also one person who would give up all to keep me safe and sound.
someone today reminded me abt what my father once said. although i make a smile and take it a joke to him, but it actually hurts. but i wouldnt want him to see me been pined down by his passing remarks. one thingh i know it well is my father has forgotten that he once had a daughter.
i cried. a big cry.
there is always a box in everyone;
a box for people to keep things they wouldnt want others to know.
and i knew it in me that i also have a box,
but im not hidding things. im hidding myself. the true self .
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[Aug. 25th, 2009|02:17 am] |
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| |  sad | ] |
| [ | sing me a lullaby |
| | in love again | ] |
in a few hrs tyme i will be going to court and its so damn stressed up. at 1st dint even noe i need to go back to court till one dae mummy called and said dat i got to go back to court on 25 august. which is a few hrs from now !!! hoping that god would blessed me with his wonderful power that everything will turn out well.
suddenly some unhappiness in me triggered. thinking back what my father say, i place myself in deep thoughts wondering did he really believe in what that medium told him? saying that i would only change till the age of 20. and the best choice is dont give a single damn to what is happening to me and let me go to the place that would restrict me with total freedom-less? why did he ever bear to say that ? when ever i thought of that out of sudden, it would definitely link to the reason why i dint when back home. remembering every single word my mom told me what was his thinking of the reason that i left home.why? why dint ue choose to trust me? am i really not that trust-able? do ue think that i would kid with such big matters that might concern someone reputation?
lots of thing is triggering the pain in me making me more den ever indeceisive.
god pls tell me what should i do.
give me the power to stay strong and make me able to decide for a better choice.
which benefits me and would do well for others.
remembered one saying;
life journey is like a road full of rocks.
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